Forced to Pause and Reflect

Less than four months after settling into life in Quebec, I was already jetting off to Vancouver for a road trip.

All that progress, my routines, my habits… interrupted.

Of course, I wanted to go. To experience more of this country with the person I love.

But underneath was that familiar voice of insecurity, questioning if I was throwing everything off course. Like taking three weeks off would erase all the work I had put in.

And to be honest, it did disrupt my rhythm, my French slowed down (some things feel like they've been erased from my brain altogether), my short-form content paused.

But the bigger impact came from being forced to fully disconnect and face some uncomfortable questions:

Is this new career path the right one?

Or was I just continuing to push forward because I had already started and was too afraid to stop?

Afraid to admit that after a year, I was still unemployed, uncertain, and slowly falling behind in life (whatever that means).

The trip raised more questions than answers about my career.

It feels a bit like stepping on a snake and sliding back to square one.

But I'm realising, it's better to ask these questions now, months into the journey, rather than after years of climbing the wrong ladder.

Sometimes progress isn't about charging ahead.

It's about learning from past mistakes. Taking the time to pause and reflect:
Is this still where I want to go?