Trying to ‘blog the right way’ made me hate writing.

When I started writing this blog, I had no idea what I was getting into.
I certainly didn't think I'd grow to hate writing.

With uneducated optimism, I made a leap of faith: bought a domain, set up a website, and hit publish on a post.

I didn't have a plan.
I just knew I needed to start and I'd figure it out along the way.

I still remember the sinking feeling that hit immediately after posting.
The initial excitement wore off fast and I realised:
This is just the beginning.

There was (and still is) so much to learn.
About writing.
About consistency.
About everything that hides behind the words we casually scroll past online.

As I quickly learnt, blogging isn't just writing.
It's strategy. SEO. Headlines. Hooks. Formatting. Platforms. Schedules.
And shouldering the relentless pressure to keep showing up.

The more I learned, the more I realised how much I had underestimated what it would take to turn a blog into something more.

And honestly?
The deeper I went, the more I started to hate it.

I procrastinated every chance I got and found every excuse not to write.
I started to hate writing altogether.

Eventually, I took a break.

Needing a break after just 10 blogs?
Not a great sign.

But that break helped me realise something important:

I don't want to "win" at blogging, at least, not in the way the internet says I should.

I don't want to chase algorithms.
I don't want to optimise every paragraph.
I don't want to write for clicks.

I want to write to figure things out.
To share what I'm learning.
To connect with people who feel the same way.

I want to write content that matters to me,
and project the voice that made me want to write in the first place.