Peaks and Valleys of Life

I've always considered myself a pretty balanced guy.
Relaxed.
Easy to be around.
Happy to weather all the small inconveniences of life.

But recently, the peaks and valleys of life have left me feeling a bit off center.

If you asked me to describe myself, I'd probably say I'm content.
Or at least… I was.

Over the past year, I've lost some of that feeling of stability.
That steady sense of contentment.

Lately, I find myself swinging more between the peaks and valleys.
Moments of clarity and energy,
followed by days filled with doubt, uncertainty, and struggling to drag myself through the day.

And as much as I love the journey I'm on now, this path I've chosen, full of change, risk, and growth.
I do miss the comfort I left behind.
The structure. The routine. The feeling of knowing where I stood.

Without that foundation, the highs can feel euphoric…
and the lows, heavier than I expected.

Some days, it's okay to feel like I'm starting from scratch.
But it's hard to feel like this every day.

Maybe this is the cost of choosing a different kind of life.
The price I pay to become the version of myself I've always imagined.

A man who takes full responsibility for his life.
His financial independence.
His relationships.
His fulfillment.

And while I'm willing to pay that price, for now, I'm not so sure I can withstand these dramatic peaks and valleys of life forever.